Mine Cousin

Ha...this title is an inside joke that only one person would get. So there's that.

Anyways I've always been close with my cousin. He's 4 years younger and has always been like this great little brother and best friend. It's pretty interesting how separate our beliefs are-Completely opposite. We haven't been in close touch for a while and we just recently had a couple of interestingly intimate conversations.

We talked like the old friends we were on the subjects closest to our hearts. He has found God and entrusted his life to Him who is I am through faith that the ideas he recieves in his head are instant messages from the almighty. Now I saw that with my snarky sarcastic use of humor merely for dramatic effect. He knows thats what he believes and he is proud of it-Many share this same conviction. I explained how I believe that his beliefs are the very source of the coming doom of our species. I explained how out-sourcing our responsibilities as sentient human beings to an invisible entity in the skies takes away our power to act. People who have faith in God and the Bible as the word of God believe they know whats to come. It's all in God's very capable and all knowing hands. This takes away any reason for us to act as a people against what we know is wrong. We accept that it's in God's hands and there is nothing we can do because it's all just too big and complicated. I say we and us because I speak of us as a species. We are human beings yet if you read my previous posts you'll see how we've been divided into subspecies and subcultures and groups and faiths and labels and blah blah blah.

We went back and forth explaining our beliefs and we realized we believed the same exact thing about the state of the world. We know that we as a species are divided by design. We see how religion is used to cloud the judgement of otherwise capable minds. He believes all that I do in that sense. That is the very reason he has completely given his life over to God. He told me it was a wonderfully freeing experience. I could imagine, like the weight of the world being lifted off his shoulders. All that responsibilty gone. His life is now completely God's will-Not his own. He even said the very ideas he gets in his head are from God himself. I asked if it was an audible voice and he was quick to point out: "I don't hear Voices!" LOL and he laughed. It's just that every thought he has is from God now. I completely believe he completely believes this and believes it to be a great honor to his creator for him to give his life over. He has pleased his God.

My cousin started to tell me the story of how he decided to devote his life to God. I knew immediately what he was going to say-I remembered it well. He was in love with this girl and it got crazy. I mean like most people in my family still think he's crazy. He was obsessed with this girl and it kinda seemed that maybe he thought God had intended them to be together. He realized it was exactly the opposite, she was the last test. He had asked God to show him, but chose not to accept it. He had to give up his entire life to God's will and that meant his wife. No, she wasn't his wife or even fiance, she was a symbol that stood for everything my cousin wanted in the life he was suppose to have given to God. He let her go.

He fights daily to only allow the thoughts that are from God to have any say in his actions. He has become the best christian I have ever known. He doesn't Judge or assume anything about anyone. He lives his life as an example of what he believes to be righteous. He has accepted poverty in order to travel and find needs to fill in strangers lives-hopfully planting the seed of the holy spirit in the process. The seed is to act as a kind of contacting device for opening the communication lines of God. No man who claims to be a devout christian and has not done what my cousin has is not giving his life to the lord. My cousin told me that he had to consciously give up his dream of marriage and children in order to accept his role as an instrument of the lord.

And you know what he told me. He said "It's great how we can still talk and we know eacother and listen. Everyone else thinks I'm crazy, but you get it and even though we're completely different-We're exactly the same." He was exactly right too.

I don't believe it's ok to give our responsibility and accountibility up to faith. I just don't believe that faith is enough to entrust our existence to. My cousin believes the complete opposite and encompasses everything every christian CLAIMS to be and strive for. He even believes the government is lying to us and leading us down a path of destruction designed by them. He believes christians are being mislead and used against the human race in a mass world wide conspiracy. He's just entrusted all his future actions to thoughts he believes to be sent from God.

I just told him that I hoped God thinks its important for us to act so you spread the word about that. He didn't really answer me. You see, he and I see the same signs of the coming apocolypse, but you can't forget that one little detail-we have completely opposite beliefs. I believe it is my responsibility as a human being that knows of a coming threat to my speacies to speak out and try to save my race. The friggin human race! My cousin believes God knows the outcome of this world and it is all in his hands. So even if he does feel the need to share with people that he believes our government was responsible for 9/11, he still believes that whatever happens because of it is whatever God intended.

I say fuck faith. Look, I mean I'll marry a woman and have a kid and go to church and allow you to try to save me. Maybe God can break through my hardened heart and show me the light. I will allow you to do that. You just have to accpet that even if you're right and God is up there watchin and sending text messages to people via brainwaves that I have something to say about the state of the world. Forget gay marriage it's gone. I don't care who the hell can get a divorce when things get bad and they want to fuck other people. Seroiously-This is way more important than being able to kill your baby when it's too tiny to say stop. We'll give you all this if you accept that maybe your God is spekaingthrough us to tell you take responsibility as a human and stand up for your rights. Not as an American, not as ANY nation or creed or race. As a human being. We act like we are so above racism and predjudice yet our faith in based in exactly those ideas.

Alright whatever. This is me high. Drugs are dangerous, but not in the way they tell you.

-Stevencody