Friday, December 5, 2008

What's Your Poison?

I really want to know what 'their' plans are for Barack.

I think I might be able to see it now, I'm just not 100% on this yet. I think the whole economy thing was the last big item on the agenda for the Bush puppet to take the fall for. Now they need someone with a clean slate and a bunch of 'hope' so they can finishing buying our country. Even Bush supporters wouldn't have allowed him to do what is going on now. Now it looks like we're being saved, the oldest trick in the 'THEIR' play book.

Look at the string of events that led us here. Go all the way back to the great depression and before. Look at the founding of the Federal Reserve. Hell, go back to the charter for the "American" public school system. Start somewhere around there and work your way to now. I'm not sure they could've done it any faster or been more efficient. We're talking about everything from social to biological engineering. They got something for everything and everyone. What's your poison?

They made us stupid and superficial. If you think me blogging about a bowl movement was in bad taste or just vulgar then search some other blogs and take a look at the proverbial shit they talk about. My mushy poop should be more palatable than some queen outing celebrities and dissing peoples physical attributes. We've have been duped into being skittish about poop while swallowing down a healthy helping of bullshit.

I have so much to say today. My manic high from the last few days has come crashing down. Things keep happening around me that show me more and more about our shared reality.

Like before, I'm all over the place here. That's the point. Think like me. This like this. Everything is connected. Just like a giant ecosystem our society, the worlds society, it's all interconnected. That's pretty much the definition of society anyway right? It's a collective of the people who contribute to it. What do you contribute? This isn't entertainment, people. These questions aren't rhetorical.

When I posted "American Down" the other day I emailed my friends and asked then for input. Well, only friends that I know agree with me. I had an agenda. I tested you and you failed. I have a huge issue with the misguided in this world. I focus on religion, sex and politics for a reason. This blog is a test of the emergency deprogramming system and it keeps failing. How can I help the ignorant masses of humanity when my supporters are just as ignorant, self involved and short sighted as the people who believe a "loving" God causes so much destruction because he knows best? Be offended, friends. You should be. I know I sure am.

If you read what I have to say and don't tell everyone you know that you agree then you are a waste of my time. Stop reading. Don't tell me you don't agree with me talking about my own suicide, but besides that you like my writing. You may not want me to die but, you can't not agree with my reasoning. Stop missing the point. I know not everyone has the ability to comprehend. I know I'm not the first person to say this stuff, but I'm doing what I think should be done. I'm doing this for you and you "like my writing"?!?! Fuck you! I'd rather people hate my writing if it makes them think. You should hate what I have to say because it's true and it sucks. I feel sorry for the people who don't get it but I feel animosity for the people who do.

Stop obeying your programming. You think theists like christians, jews and muslims are the only ones who have controlled thought processes. What's your poison? The Hills? Equal rights? Looking good? Making money? USA not America? Your Loved ones? Your Job? Being socially accepted is the tie that binds. Our need to be connected and accepted is the syringe in which we inject our poison. Now, what is your poison? Yeah I'm pissed at the people who "like" what I have to say. So fuck you and your easy way out, you cowards. What's your poison?

From the first breath of polluted air we breathe to the moment you realize your time on this earth is finite you are being poisoned. Stop breathing in the bullshit you don't have to. It's bad enough our air is poison, but our society has become lethal to our minds.

Stop waiting. What are you waiting for anyway? I can't save you in the future. I,like you, have only now.

NOW!

-Steven

Thursday, December 4, 2008

Everybody poops but rodents do it best.

I just had an amazing realization while trying to push several differently shaped turds through my dried out colon this morning. As I struggled to navigate these various turds past my enlarged prostate, I noticed what appeared to be several mice droppings laying at my feet. At first I just thought mice sure have it lucky pooping the exact same little pellets every time and not even noticing the movemement. Then came the second type of poop wich was mushy like cake soup. I guess it was stuck behind the cork-llike logs that took so musch work getting out. I pondered on evolution and humans being the most advanced species but we still can't shit as effortlessly than mice.

Sometimes I'll sit on the can for an hour and read or re-read my favorite graphic novel, have a smoke, talk to my self and listen to a good mixtape. What a fucking production that is, not to mention everyone surely thinks I masterbate a lot more than I actually do because of it.

Sure other animals poop pellets but they aren't eating like we do. Mice eat all the nasty poisons we do and they digest it into perfectly identical little rice poopies. What the hell is up with that?

Steven

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

American Down

I just smoked weed with a friend and her husband while she held their new born baby on her lap. She had a forty ounce Busch next to her and the babies head rested on the head of their pit bull.

I told her how amazing that picture was and that I was going to draw it when I got home. She said she wanted a copy. I tried to explain how amazing the picture was. I told her it would spark such thought and it would be so amazing if people could see it. She said “Well I just think it’s me.”

Her husband just got out of jail. She also has another son who is 14 years old. He lives with his grandma and calls her mom. They live down the street from their daughter and mother respectively. The boy knows who his mom is and they see each other and hang out but his friends think he has an attractive older sister. The grandma demands she be called mom and tells all her friends it’s her son.

My friends been a druggie. From crack to ecstasy and everything in between, this girl has been around. Worse than anything she’s an alcoholic. A bad one. Once she cashed her paycheck at the bar on friday at 10:30 in the morning and drank there until 1 am Saturday morning. That’s 15 hours of drinking without food or water. She passed out that night with her ass in the air and belly fat spilling over onto the floor. Snoring like an elephant calling for help while we got high. She had just drooled all over our drug dealer while he was rolling me one. She was begging him to fuck her and he kept refusing. At one point she drooled a string of mucus stretching from her mouth to his jean and suck it all the way back up while saying “Come on EERRRRIC don’t you wanna have some funnnnnnn.” He eventually told her she could suck his dick, that's when she passed out.

A little over three years ago I had a nervous breakdown and stormed out of a pretty decent job. I sold my condo for a hefty 900% profit and moved to the south with my dog to live with my mom. I decided I was going to write and draw my big epic graphic novel. I bought all the supplies I would need and got to work. I stopped after one day. I couldn’t do it right away. I got a job and, long story short, it’s three years, four jobs, and three moves later. I’ve only published a twenty something page preview edition of this epic novel that was to change the world and my life forever. The money from the condo was gone in the first year and I’ve since been stealing, dealing, pawning and working dead end jobs for mere months at a time. When I say months I mean no more than two.

I’m ready to write now. I’m read to create and produce. I still got a lot of issues though, issues that are preventing me from being productive. I’m stuck in this world that I didn’t have a say in the making of and I really, really hate it. I’ve come to realize I always have. In my mind I’ve always been an observer. I can't help but notice all these things that just aren’t ok. So many things that are in this world should not be. We as a species should not allow our race to go out like this.

I’m not merely talking about my friend and other humans using and abusing in front of newborn babies. I’m talking about the whole shebang. I don’t care what any idiot says-George Bush should never have been elected president. I’m not saying that’s the source of our problems either. I believe we’ve been nipple deep in shit since sometime between the Civil and 1st World wars. We gave our country over to Bankers and Money Changers. Now a completely private bank controls our money and entire economy and we allow it because it calls itself The ‘Federal’ Reserve. It's no more federal than Fed Ex in case you didn't know. Your tax money doesn't even cover the interest our country owes on the money it uses against us on a daily basis. Not to mention the Catholic Church alone has enough money to feed the world until it's swallowed up by the sun. Not to mention people like Oprah and Bill gates or any number of milion and billionaires who could easily solve much of the worlds hunger if only they cared enough. I'm not saying that people aren't doing anything about it, but when you got Oprah giving diamonds to rich black people while millions are starving every year then whats the point of doing anything at all.

We’re smack in the middle of an illegal occupation of a country that was justified by a lie that was originally built on another lie and then neatly wrapped up in fear and patriotism for your digestion. Before you start to even fucking argue just think about it. I’m not stating opinion, it’s not like I can’t prove everything I’ve said. I mean Hell it’s not even hidden! ‘They’ put it right out there and label it conspiracy and that's all it ever amounts to be.

There was no WMDs period. We were told there was proof and that we were in immediate danger. I think more people knew it was shit before it became the mess it has, only we had just been attacked by another monster from another country. The worst disaster in modern American history and it was used as a ploy to get a permanent military presence on the front lines of prime real-estate that just happened to be right at the realization that we are at peak oil. That means it's officially running out folks. Don’t fucking argue with me, there is nothing to argue. This among other atrocities is the world we choose to live in. Honestly I may kill myself soon, I think about it all the time. Not because I hate myself, or I'm depressed or I want the easy way out. No, because sometimes I truly feel like you don't deserve me. And to be honest, I'm sick of this world I didn't create or agree to. I either need it to change soon or I'm out. I didn't choose to be born into this, but I have to take my share of the responsibility for allowing it to be.

It may seem like I’m all over the place talking about my fucked up friends and the Iraq disaster but my friend and I are connected and equally responsible for allowing this to happen. And you, my friend, are just as guilty as us. We, not as Americans, but as a species have allowed our legacy to continue on a collectively destructive path that will no doubt lead to our extinction.

Yeah I think I’m going to talk about everything from Africa to A.I.D.S to Oprah to Oprah AND A.I.D.S in Africa. It’s all fucked up and it needs to stop. I know I will come off as self important to most to say the least, however, that couldn’t be further from the truth. I think we’re all the same. I mean we’re a species, we know that. We know why we live and why we die and how to prevent it from happening unnaturally. We have the power to never allow another of our species to starve and yet it happens every HOUR.

WHY IS THIS ALLOWED TO BE THE WORLD WE SHARE AS A SPECIES?!

It’s just not okay. I don’t understand how anyone can understand what I’m saying and not be as fucking pissed as I am. I feel once you hear this and can process what it means for us all then you are obligated to do whatever it is you can to try and fix it. For however many years there was life without homosapiens, existence waited patiently to be admired and enjoyed by beings capable of understanding the precious, wonderous majesty of it all. Then we arrive, the intended stewards of life, what do we do? We not only unnecessarily put our own specie's extinction at the top of our priorities, but the complete and utter destruction of all life on this planet as well. Even if you don't believe in evolution and you think there is an invisible political figure head dicatating the righteous from the damned, you still can't deny that our species will be responsible for the destruction of this world. The problem with you theists is that you glorify your own extinction by believing that what comes after our physical existence is better, not to mention predetermined. NOT OOOOOKAAAYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I know science can't explain everything, BUT COME ON ALREADY! ENOUGH! IT'S OVER! NO MORE! EVOLVE!



What I am going to do is try to tell as many people as I can. From my neighbors to the idiot doctor than prescribed me Jesus and prayer for depression. (Not that it’s that much worse than being prescribed a drug that worsens the depression in over 50% of the people that take it, but come on.) I’m going to talk about that and I’m going to talk about my crack head friends my fucked up family and my fucked up self. I’m going to write it down and add some half ass, lazy fucking sketches call it a graphic novel and self publish it on LULU.COM. I’m going to put my fucked up crazy self out there and risk it all because I think the fate of our species is at stake.

Sometimes I think about my life from my first step to my first night being a male prostitute and I feel like the day I was born it’s like my mom’s vagina was a gun and I was a human bullet fired from it. I think we can all be baby bullets fired from the vaginal barrell. Pussy guns loaded with little crack babies aimed at the injustice that makes our world the way it is, religion. My target is within range and this book is my first strike. Even if you think I’m stupid or sound ridiculous I don’t care. I don’t think the truth can be stopped once it’s realized. My book will be Truth in print. Hopefully enough people will listen and together we can split this fucking world in two with the power of truth. BUY MULTIPLE COPIES OF MY BOOK, the fate of existence is at stake.

I'm not so naive as to not see that our time on this earth is as finite as the resources we are consuming at a progressively faster pace. We will be extinct. Everything that begins also ends or time would have no meaning. Only one thing is timeless and that is legacy. What will our legacy be and why wait to change it? We have the ability to understand it now. I do. Others do. We have the ability to change the only thing that will outlast us. We choose our legacy. I'm choosing mine now. What will your legacy be? Now, right now, lets just live up to our incredible potential. We are capable of so much more.

I think my new motto will be "Evolve or die.". I don't think I can make it any more clear. I'm coming for you, injustice. Your time is up.

-From the forward in the graphic novel American Down: What the fuck happened? by Steven Lawrence Cody Harper, available July 4th 2009.

Friday, September 7, 2007

Free Thinking

Just a quick post about free thinkers...

I've been hearing a lot of stuff about free thinkers lately. Mostly because I've finally found people who share my views as a "free thinker". But what is a free thinker?

Free: without cost, the ability to choose-uncontrolled...and blah blah, we all know what being free is. I just don't think many people actually understand the meaning or realize how much their choices stem from control.

Thought: To have a conscious mind- able to make decisions.

So "Free Thinkers" are merely people who are able to think without preconceived notions passed down through tradition or ordered by some authority or institution.

You can still be a free thinker if you're a christian or any other faith. You can question your beliefs...it's ok I promise. If your faith, whatever that may be, warns against it then you aren't even free at all. We have will and reason and the ability to know right from wrong and if those things that make us human are controlled from any outer source then what are you?

Open the lines of communication whoever you are and whatever you believe. It seems so simple but it's a scary thought to have to figure things out for yourself. We've been tought to learn from people we're told are better than us or know better. The idea of faith in any religion is applied to your life.

I have talked to many people who believe the big things in life aren't meant for them. "Oh" they say, "Oh that's too complicated, I just leave that up to God." Or "Oh that's just too much to worry about, I'll just let my government figure it out."

If you have faith without knowledge to base it on then you are not free. Since when did knowledge become so evil? Come on tell me, when? Uhhh I think there was a garden or something and a couple "powerful trees". Apparently we were never suppose to be smart enough to know good from evil, because some God guy who created us said we could live forever as long as we remained in the dark.

This is where faith in any Jewish based religion loses all credibility for me. If you believe the story of creation than you believe you were meant to be mentally retarded. Since a smart gal named Eve ate (or smoked) some fruit you now have the ability to know right from wrong. Uh oh now that you have the ability, you better not use it for fear of eternal Hell fire. So here take this book and live by it or die. Never let anyone tell you to think otherwise and actually just don't even have conversations with anyone that has decided to think for themselves.

Far to many are slaves to this idea that knowledge is bad and not meant for everyone. If you think this applies only to religion you are dead wrong. This idea that knowledge is meant for them is your slave driver. You are marching towards a cliff on the edge of the abyss and you have faith that someone somewhere knows you'll be ok.

Wake up. It's ok to think or we wouldn't have the ability in the first place.

Wake up!

Friday, August 24, 2007

Mine Cousin

Ha...this title is an inside joke that only one person would get. So there's that.

Anyways I've always been close with my cousin. He's 4 years younger and has always been like this great little brother and best friend. It's pretty interesting how separate our beliefs are-Completely opposite. We haven't been in close touch for a while and we just recently had a couple of interestingly intimate conversations.

We talked like the old friends we were on the subjects closest to our hearts. He has found God and entrusted his life to Him who is I am through faith that the ideas he recieves in his head are instant messages from the almighty. Now I saw that with my snarky sarcastic use of humor merely for dramatic effect. He knows thats what he believes and he is proud of it-Many share this same conviction. I explained how I believe that his beliefs are the very source of the coming doom of our species. I explained how out-sourcing our responsibilities as sentient human beings to an invisible entity in the skies takes away our power to act. People who have faith in God and the Bible as the word of God believe they know whats to come. It's all in God's very capable and all knowing hands. This takes away any reason for us to act as a people against what we know is wrong. We accept that it's in God's hands and there is nothing we can do because it's all just too big and complicated. I say we and us because I speak of us as a species. We are human beings yet if you read my previous posts you'll see how we've been divided into subspecies and subcultures and groups and faiths and labels and blah blah blah.

We went back and forth explaining our beliefs and we realized we believed the same exact thing about the state of the world. We know that we as a species are divided by design. We see how religion is used to cloud the judgement of otherwise capable minds. He believes all that I do in that sense. That is the very reason he has completely given his life over to God. He told me it was a wonderfully freeing experience. I could imagine, like the weight of the world being lifted off his shoulders. All that responsibilty gone. His life is now completely God's will-Not his own. He even said the very ideas he gets in his head are from God himself. I asked if it was an audible voice and he was quick to point out: "I don't hear Voices!" LOL and he laughed. It's just that every thought he has is from God now. I completely believe he completely believes this and believes it to be a great honor to his creator for him to give his life over. He has pleased his God.

My cousin started to tell me the story of how he decided to devote his life to God. I knew immediately what he was going to say-I remembered it well. He was in love with this girl and it got crazy. I mean like most people in my family still think he's crazy. He was obsessed with this girl and it kinda seemed that maybe he thought God had intended them to be together. He realized it was exactly the opposite, she was the last test. He had asked God to show him, but chose not to accept it. He had to give up his entire life to God's will and that meant his wife. No, she wasn't his wife or even fiance, she was a symbol that stood for everything my cousin wanted in the life he was suppose to have given to God. He let her go.

He fights daily to only allow the thoughts that are from God to have any say in his actions. He has become the best christian I have ever known. He doesn't Judge or assume anything about anyone. He lives his life as an example of what he believes to be righteous. He has accepted poverty in order to travel and find needs to fill in strangers lives-hopfully planting the seed of the holy spirit in the process. The seed is to act as a kind of contacting device for opening the communication lines of God. No man who claims to be a devout christian and has not done what my cousin has is not giving his life to the lord. My cousin told me that he had to consciously give up his dream of marriage and children in order to accept his role as an instrument of the lord.

And you know what he told me. He said "It's great how we can still talk and we know eacother and listen. Everyone else thinks I'm crazy, but you get it and even though we're completely different-We're exactly the same." He was exactly right too.

I don't believe it's ok to give our responsibility and accountibility up to faith. I just don't believe that faith is enough to entrust our existence to. My cousin believes the complete opposite and encompasses everything every christian CLAIMS to be and strive for. He even believes the government is lying to us and leading us down a path of destruction designed by them. He believes christians are being mislead and used against the human race in a mass world wide conspiracy. He's just entrusted all his future actions to thoughts he believes to be sent from God.

I just told him that I hoped God thinks its important for us to act so you spread the word about that. He didn't really answer me. You see, he and I see the same signs of the coming apocolypse, but you can't forget that one little detail-we have completely opposite beliefs. I believe it is my responsibility as a human being that knows of a coming threat to my speacies to speak out and try to save my race. The friggin human race! My cousin believes God knows the outcome of this world and it is all in his hands. So even if he does feel the need to share with people that he believes our government was responsible for 9/11, he still believes that whatever happens because of it is whatever God intended.

I say fuck faith. Look, I mean I'll marry a woman and have a kid and go to church and allow you to try to save me. Maybe God can break through my hardened heart and show me the light. I will allow you to do that. You just have to accpet that even if you're right and God is up there watchin and sending text messages to people via brainwaves that I have something to say about the state of the world. Forget gay marriage it's gone. I don't care who the hell can get a divorce when things get bad and they want to fuck other people. Seroiously-This is way more important than being able to kill your baby when it's too tiny to say stop. We'll give you all this if you accept that maybe your God is spekaingthrough us to tell you take responsibility as a human and stand up for your rights. Not as an American, not as ANY nation or creed or race. As a human being. We act like we are so above racism and predjudice yet our faith in based in exactly those ideas.

Alright whatever. This is me high. Drugs are dangerous, but not in the way they tell you.

-Stevencody

Friday, August 10, 2007

Faith in Man

I want credit for my actions. Good or bad I'd like to be acknowledged for what I do and accomplish. I'd thank all those in my life who helped me with any given situation of course. I want to be acknowledged as a human being who deserves better than what we have. We ALL deserve better. I am a human and so are you. We make choices and decisions every second of every waking hour of every single day of our lives. WE are responsible for the lives and deaths of our fellow human beings with every choice we make. We, as human beings, have total control over everything that happens on this planet. WE are responsible.

I wish everyone could see and hear and understand what I'm telling you. Sadly, even though many will agree with me, still more will not hear me. We have ultimate control, but I think we got scared of all the responsibility-So we out sourced it to an invisible bully in the sky. This will be the part where I think I'll lose a large majority of readers. Bye.

How can we ever accept the responsibility we have for this world if we've given it up to the stars. On our journey to top dog of the hood we, as a species, sought explanation. We are a curious creature that seeks understanding. At first our understanding was placed in the things we couldn't understand. We made the ruler of our days the very thing that gave us day, the sun. This was our first great accomplishment and our worst mistake. We were young as a species and underdeveloped, but we understood that the sun gave us day and when it went away we had darkness. There is a reason why many are afraid of the dark. When we first deified the sun we gave it an opposite and an antagonist in the moon. Light and dark were soon equivalent to good and bad. We gave them names and histories and put them in control of our existence. We gave them the authority to flood our villages and suck up our homes in a mighty whirling wind sphere. We gave them the power to shake the earth and light the sky with fire. We made God's to rule over us and give us meaning.

Now that we explained in our infantile minds how and why things happened we elevated ourselves to a new level. We began our search inward and sought to explain why we are here. If they are gods in the heavens to rule existence then why are we here? What is our purpose? Why do we love and lose? Why do we feel? We decided to apply our celestial rulers to our minds. They are the reason we think and dream and love and kill. We now have discovered our influence, our benefactor. This is where we lost control. We gave up our responsibility for our choices. We evolved.

Mankind has evolved. That fact is undeniable. Our minds have discovered reason and overtime we discovered science. We can split the atom and we know why there are rainbows. Rainbows are light refracting off the moisture in the air. That's pretty simple, right? Why would I even feel the need to explain, or do you know where I'm going with this? We once believe the rainbow to be from our gods. A beautiful promise of brilliant colors that we would never be drowned in a horrible flood. OOPS. We are still young comparatively and we could have a wonderful future if we can shed our naive and false beliefs and continue on our journey of self discovery and evolution.

We once believed that bleeding someone who was sick was an efficient cure-all.
We once believed the world was flat.
We once believed that black men were meant to serve as slaves. Some still do.
We once believed people of different color needed different toilets and schools less than 100 years ago. Some still do.
We once believed Rosa Parks had to give up her seat to a white man less than 100 years ago. Some still do.
We once believed women weren't equal to men less than 100 years ago. Some still do.
We once believed people actively choose who they are sexually and emotionally attracted too like 10 years ago,MANY still do.

I think you can see what I mean by evolution. Oh, I applaud all who are still reading. Thanks.

We have shed our naive past beliefs on many things. We still have a way to go, but we are heading towards being human once again. There is a problem though. Some of our hang-ups with outdated beliefs are actually leading us toward our doom. If we are unable to overcome the affliction we imposed on ourselves when we were young and ignorant then we will die out as a species.

My main question to you is: How can we care enough to save this world if we still believe that what comes after is better?

More people than you know are aware of this. Sadly, some have taken advantage of your ignorance and become the physical manifestation of the invisible god you think has taken the wheel. If you have faith in god then there is no reason to worry. That is so convenient for them, that is what you must overcome.

Your "faith" is destroying your kind. I wouldn't even care so much if it only effected you, but there is a bunch of other people here and you have the fate of our existence in your hands. Your everyday choices are responsible for the lives of every single individual human on this planet.

It won't be easy. You have been programmed to ignore me and your own lingering doubts.

Wake the FUCK up!!!

PLEASE

Wednesday, August 1, 2007

Awaken the voiceless why.

VOICELESS

I have something to say. I have beliefs and an opinion, but I have no voice. It was stolen, stolen by a sickness of words. A disease of language passed down from my ancestors. It is important that you can hear me and I have found a chance to reach you. I want to overcome the words of labels and lies and beat this affliction. Will you hear me? If you choose not to listen to me or hear my words then ask youself 'why?'. Keep asking yourself this until you find the truth. Then you may not need me.

WHOOOOOO ARE WE

Can you see me? If you think you can see me then ask yourself what you see. Who am I? A man. White. Gay. Liberal. Crazy. Paranoid. Am I a label?-complete with corresponding instructions? Can you completely shut me out based on my label?
Would you? I didn't choose my label and you do not have to act according to yours. You see? Thats the real dangers in labels- you start to believe your own...and act accordingly. The funny thing is: your label has as much to do with what you are "not" as much as it does what you are. We've become the negatives of our opposition. If "they" are this then "we" are not. We're pitted against eachother in order to define who we are. Do we really need an enemy to define ourselves like some saturday morning cartoon. Every good hero needs a great enemy. You know you've heard it. Their very struggle defines them. Is this true for real life? According to our actually history and corresponding beliefs and actions then yes it does, absolutely. I think, somewhere along the way, we fell in love with the fight and forgot who we were fighting . We have been divided as a race. Look around what do you see? Americans-Christians-Muslims-Blacks-Whites-Iraqis-Gays-Men-Women-Democrats-Republicans-Liberals-Conservatives-----Did any of those words make you cringe even just a little? Have you ever thought negatively of any people associated with those groups at any given time? Are any one of those words NOT a 4 letter word to descibe the "opposition"? Maybe it's just me, but I doubt it. Is this all we are? We are human beings and we deserve better than this. Be you.

WHY?

Why are you who you are? To be or not to be? That is really really the question isn't it? Are you what you choose "to be" or what you choose "not to be". Apply this question to many truths. Don't be affraid to question. You have been taught to accept and that to question is wrong. Just ask-Why?

Q: Why am I comelled to write this?
Q: Why do I feel the need to stand up and speak out?
Q: Why am I being so annoyingly wordy?

A: I am passionate about my beliefs and feel they are important.
A: I believe you are in trouble and I want to warn you before it's too late. I will accept the ridicule in exchange for the chance
to reach one other soul who may be inspired to reach another.
A: I am just annoyingly wordy.

The purpose of the silly questions is to state the obvious: Motivation. What motivates me, what is my "agenda". My answers are the truth, I have no reason to lie. Yet my reasons are not what you see. I have a label and it came with an agenda. Agenda is a universal label enhancer usually attach to one of the previously mentioned labels. But what is agenda? Well according to this big ass dictionary next to me it's: "A list of things to be done, especially the program for a meeting.". Hardly sinister as a definition. Yet, somehow, if I said "Gay Agenda" I think I would be hard pressed to find someone who hears that as a positive. This may seem very silly, but some people believe there is an actual "gay agenda" to destroy the american family by ruining the institution of marriage and raising children to be gay. Although I'm sure some gays have a to do list that may even include "fight for equal rights" near the top-I doubt they have any intention on destroying the institution of marriage let alone recruitment. The same goes for the "Right Wing". I doubt that the active "Right Wing Agenda" is to be biggots who dish out God's will like mash potatos at a soup kitchen with an adversion to equal rights. It may be the belief of either side that the agendas above are true. The sad thing is that we allow them to be. We have chosen to be our labels. We have become the negative of our "opposition". Now we are divided and sorted into groups then guided along by our chosen leaders. We see the fight rage everyday between them and us, but its not them and us fighting. The fight we see is a coreographed play. Don't look behind the curtain...you might find reality.

I have heard many people referred to as "Hating America" because they don't agree with the war. I have heard peopled called "unpatriotic" because they want the troops home. I have heard many people called stupid conspiracy theorists because they don't believe the official 9/11 comission. Have you ever asked why?

Never forget the facts. Wether ot not you choose to believe any given evidence for any given reason-you simply can't ignore the facts. I just say that because sometimes the facts seem to be left off the label.

Wake up and ask why.

Awake

I'm awake and it sucks.
Everyone else is still sleeping and theres nothing I can do
I'm bored and have no-one to talk to
Oh no!!! There is a snake coming towards you!
He's in your bed! Wake up! Wake up!
You have to hear me! Wake up!
Why can't you hear me!!
Why why why!!! Wake up!
Wake up!!!!
Why?!!?!?! Why won't you wake up?!?!??!
Why??!?!



-Stevencody